Sunday, December 29, 2013


Recently, my wife and I decided to pay a holiday visit to an older friend, Lydia. We came to know her at the Presideo (military post, now closed); she is 90 and just discovered she has a brain tumor. How is it manifesting itself? Loss of memory. Not like Alzheimer's but something else entirely--totally cognizant but simply forgets details. Lydia was one of several women who formed a kind of platoon of older connections to the military. Religiously, they went on a monthly outing. 

While she was alive, our good friend, Victoria, was mostly our connection and very reflective of the whole contingent; then as they aged, whoever had a car and could drive, i. e., Victoria, they would go to places like the Olive Garden (a chain restaurant. You could hear the collective groan from the Olive Garden staff. They wanted separate checks, what was the cheapest thing, could they get a box to take this home. 

There would be 6 or eight. My wife went with them mostly. I managed to skate out  usually. When I did go with them, I made it a point to quiz them about their early lives. All had these lives that could be a novel. (Edna, Wanda, Betty, Bill and Jane, Ruth) Living all around the world, experiencing America during the war. I would leave their presence with all this stuff rolling around my head. It was truly amazing 

One by one they have "gone home" as we say in the South. Most with age related illnesses, several with dementia, etc. We had a "last" Christmas with Lydia at her house. She displayed all this great German stuff. She was, in fact, German. 

Her early life housed much romance. Her husband, Bill, met her right after the "War." The Army refused to allow GIs to marry Germans. Bill goes back to the states and vows to stay in the military until they change their policy. They did. He returns to Germany and marries her.

Lydia, like my Vietnam buddies from 3d Platoon, Bravo Company, 1/501st Infantry, 101st Airborne Division, have vowed to meet in reunion until there is "the last man standing." Lydia is the "last man" standing. 

Sunday, December 15, 2013


Forgiveness is a powerful emotion. Recent examples: the Sandy Hook Commemoration and then I saw a powerful instance of forgiveness coming from the Amish Community to a mother whose son had killed eight innocent girls. 
And, then by chance, I ran across this movie, never even heard of it. “The High Cost of Living.” A drug dealer while dispensing his goods, takes a wrong turn, runs over a pregnant woman, hailing a taxi to go to the hospital. His sorry life is upended. He stops, calls for help but leaves: a hit and run. The pregnant woman has a concussion and also loses her baby. Her world collapses. As she unravels, Henry, the drug dealer gets involved with her. The drug dealer, played by Zack Braff, tries to come to terms with what he’s done. He gives her a safe place to “BE,” waits on the victim of his crime, is powerfully tender. Her marriage was in the pits long before the horrendous crime. 

Eventually, Henry’s world comes apart totally. He runs but his whole life has been affected and he returns to the woman and confesses. She, in essence, beats him into the ground as well she should. He refuses to accept her condemnation and she, in her way, forgives. He turns himself into the police. We are left wondering what happens and to make up our own story. 

Yes, the powerful emotion of forgiveness overwhelms almost. A powerful movie. I had never of it and can understand why it didn’t get much play. Not a feel good movie, no Hollywoodish bullshit. This is a thinking movie and why I love movies like this. In fact, to be honest it brought up a lot of soul searching. Am I troubled by the “forgiveness issue?” F..king A. “Yes sir ree bob,” as we say in the South. I have had a little experience in the area. One I can easily share is when I decided to seek out all my former girlfriends that I had done wrong and asked forgiveness. What had I done? Mainly to profess love when I was by nature an awful womanizer to use an anachronism. There were about six. It was delicate. They were all into their own lives and I was probably merely a bleep on their radar screen. But, I figured it out and ask each for forgiveness. To a person they said. “Forget it, we were just kids.” Did it make me feel better? I think so but not sure. Are there others? Yes, but way to delicate and complicated. In the movie, Henry had to ask forgiveness and rightly said, “he had to do it for himself.” For victims of awful atrocities like the Sandy Hook massacre, they too must do it for themselves. God bless them.

Thursday, December 05, 2013


Nelson Mandela just died at age 95. Mandela had so many years taken away from him. (27 years in prison); always an inspiring figure. What has to stand out for us white folks is example. When he became president after years of mistreatment, he could have enacted revenge. It was what he was expected to do. He didn't but showed grace. Over the next several days, he will be praised and made a saint. Rightly so. As a world leader, he surely wasn't perfect but he was far ahead of any I knew. God bless him on his journey. 

Wednesday, December 04, 2013


A few days ago, it was AIDs Awareness Day. I didn't even know it. Talk about something that has moved out of the American conscience, We really ought to be ASHAMED. 

HIV can now be treated with antiviral drugs and so those who have contracted the disease can basically live long and productive lives. But, what about the memories of those who died before we figured it out: million plus for sure. "Dallas Buyers Club" reminded me of the AIDS crisis in full bloom which I witnessed. I remember being at Letterman Army Hospital when it was a full scale teaching hospital. (Closed now) If I remember correctly, we had an entire ward (maybe 50 or 60 soldiers) of HIV patients and the Army didn't have a clue what to do. 

Gays were dying right and left. I let them use the Chapel for Memorial Services. In the Chapel with a room full of men crying was quite the experience. We had a little drama: one of the other chaplains snitched on me for letting this civilian pastor use the chapel. The Commander, can't remember his name, told me to cut it out. I ignored him. He calls me to his office, we get in a shouting match and I call him an asshole. He fires me. Dang, what times! When I finish the book I'm working on, I am going to write a book about Letterman. 

These were really sad times. There were so many tentacles to the AIDS crisis. I had to put my own sense of morality, whatever that might have been, aside and serve what/who was in front of me. Sometimes I witnessed simple acts of courage. At other times  a touch of judgement, from parents, usually. More than once a parent, who lived far away, would come to town. Their son had died. Unfortunately, he had not taken care of the legal stuff. The "next of Kin" as we say in the military was still the parents. The son often had a partner who was overwhelmed with grief. The parents in judgement ignored the partner. They packed up the son's belongings and made arrangement for his body to be shipped to his home of record. The emotional trauma around this is greater than could be imagined. 

The President has pledged a hundred million for the eradication of AIDS. For gays, the lesson is do your part, cut out risky behavior or I am going to kick your ass. 

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

The Tradition

Thanksgiving. When I think of what to be thankful for in this year, I am a little perplexed. I have witnessed some pretty sad things. Friends unemployed, losing their business. As a volunteer at the Cancer Infusion Center, I've been involved with a few who lost the fight to live. Cancer. You have it whipped and suddenly the SOB is back again. F..K!! 

And, then we see on TV the pictures of the awful atrocities of war. The starving children. We are not doing enough. 

When we scan the globe on this strictly American holiday, we have to be eternally grateful. Plain and simple. As "Mericans" (NASCAR pronunciation), we have a boatload of problems but a lot of Americans are out there doing what they can: working at Saint Anthony's, the Salvation Army, Glide Memorial Church--feeding the downtrodden, working at food banks. Some nonprofit is providing showers for the homeless; another has developed a website for those, like myself, who can go in and donate to a specific person. On the website, they have profiled the various persons with needs. What a great idea. Helpers are everywhere. 

Then having done their good deed 
(screw the skeptics), they are gathering with family for the turkey day meal. We will not give up the tradition. Happy Thanksgiving. We will think about all the problems tomorrow. 

Saturday, November 23, 2013


Way back at the very beginning of our misadventure into Iraq, I saw an article saying that we had imported several "ice making machines" into the war zone. My thoughts then, "oh no, here we go again." We are planning for a lengthy stay. There is something about the military and mostly good motives-- wanting to make life better for the troops; however, it is often a self defeating signal that we are going to be here awhile. 

I was a prophet. 10 plus years and it all began with the "ice makers." What the f..k is it with us. Why do we insist on making stupid decisions, absolute wrong headed decisions. 

Example: GITMO. "60 Minutes" did a piece on it where Leslie Stahl was granted assess to a kind of walk through. It was scary as you could feel the tension in her. This Military Police Colonel, essentially the Warden, escorted her on her Gitmo tour. He was one of these "by the book" Colonels who had his side to the story: accomplish the mission. He handled the interview pretty well but it was obvious to me that he had the creativity of a f..king tree. 

This is not a hit on him. He is a soldier--his mission, "run a prison." What the hell!! However, he should be relieved and replaced with an innovative, creative civilian who understands the military. The arguments for keeping GITMO open are ones that push us deeper into the chasm of no resolution and a terrible example to the world. F..k. 

Part of the interview briefly showed the living arrangement for families, they have living quarters (houses). Kids are playing soccer. Life is good. (This is GITMO)

These are "ice machines." The military has created an environment to stay. The hit is on the military. Some high ranking commander ought to be standing up and saying, "hold it." We are not setting up a permanent environment here. GITMO is closing at some point. Bullshit, I might as well be whistling Dixie. 

When I was a young captain in the Army in the Sixties, I was assigned to cover the stockade as we called it then. Most of the prisoners were young soldiers who had been AWOL (absent without leave). Few of them had committed real crimes. If they had been civilians they wouldn't have been in jail. Most were trying to escape Vietnam. We had a sharp commander who said, "let's don't be stupid. Let's get these troops back to duty. If they go AWOL again, it is better than them being in jail. 

This has been a real mystery to me concerning GITMO. The poor performance of the Church toward the prisoners. There is no way that one could read the four gospels, Matthew, Mark, Luke, John and not come away with the very real knowledge that everything that Jesus said and did had to do with love and peace. A time or two, he seemed to be righteously indignant at acts of wanton selfishness, i. e., casting the money changers out of the temple. 

Bad actors in GITMO? You better believe it. Let's face it, keeping them in GITMO is not going to keep us from terrorists. With these, the prisoners, we may have missed some opportunities to turn a terrorist to another life. Who knows? At the least, we should get them gone. What happens happens. We will protect ourselves. The answers are few and far between but GITMO is not one of them. . 

Thursday, November 21, 2013


I was a young pastor in SC, a seminary student and a young military Reservist. I was wandering around throughout the countryside and passed this house where an older lady was using a broom to knock pecans (we call them pea-cans) out of a tree. Her efforts were mostly futile. I stopped and offered help. I climbed the tree and easily began dislodging the pecans. Suddenly another older lady ran out of the house screaming, the President has been shot. The president has been shot. 

The Irony

Am I the only one in America who sees the irony of Afghanistan debating whether we can stay or not. Yes, please let us stay so we can have more young Americans killed and spend millions of dollars that we don't have. What the f..kšŸ˜³


Wednesday, November 13, 2013


I saw "Dallas Buyers Club." Good, maybe great movie.  Matthew McConaughey was terrific. Because  I live in San Francisco, I identity more with the entire AIDs scene. I was here when gays, in particular, were dying right and left. The movie dealt with being gay and dying and the lack of empathy and basic ignorance toward AIDS. 

 McConaughey was a maxed out hustler, rodeo rider, kind of like minor leagues. Based on a true story. The government,  medical community, all came out looking pretty bad. Given 30 days to live, after being diagnosed as being HIV positive, he states in dramatic fashion, "there ain't nothing that can kill me in 30 days." Texas electrician Ron Woodroof, (McConaughey) delivers the performance of his career, characterized not just by an astonishing physical transformation like losing 40 pounds but a determination to find a way out. Along the way, he encounters the heart of the movie, the transvestite, Rayan. 

There are a lot who can review this movie better than me but my slant would be a little different, having witnessed the utter ruthlessness of the killer, AIDS, I was moved on many levels. 

The portrayal of homophobia and ignorance was masterfully done. Well, it is Texas. Terrific movie and if McConaughey doesn't get an academy award, I will be fooled. 

The transvestite, Rayan, reminded me of an incident involving my brother who was such a wonderful older brother (As much as I loved him, will have to acknowledge his slight homophobia) and who recently transitioned to the next life. Raz came out to visit me in San Francisco years ago. Both of us love movies and so one afternoon, we go to the movies. I go in and sit down. He doesn't come and doesn't come. Finally, I go looking for him. He would talk to anyone.

When I find him, he is talking to this beautiful woman. As I stand and look, I realize "She" is actually a "He." He/She was gorgeous, just as Rayan was (in fact I will use the pronoun, she--I love her). I finally pulled Raz away and gave him the news. He refused to believe it. Over the years, I have gotten a lot of mileage out of that story. God bless you, Raz. Miss you so much. jda

Saturday, November 09, 2013


Scott Simon of NPR (National Public Radio), my favorite guy, did a piece on Secretary Chuck Hegel, the DOD head. Every month, Hegel brings in about six soldiers and they talk shop. Soldiers, meaning, Marines, Navy, females, former "don't ask don't tell" types; no restrictions.  According to Simon, the soldiers talked about their career, philosophical issues like, "Purpose in Iraq?" What Simon discovered as always with soldiers, they are not in a vacuum. They are like any "aware" group of young Americans.  At the close of his piece, Simon said something like, "What I discovered was that  soldiers were a microcosm of our America society." (Definition, such as a place or an event that is seen as a small version of something much larger) What has my man Simon been smoking? Bullshit, how did he deduce such, they are far from being a microcosm, whatever he's concluded. They are a small percent (about 1%), usually drawn from a segment of society where the military becomes mostly their best option. They are good soldiers but they are not a microcosm with less than one percent of the American society having served in the military and the general public more likely than not unengaged. Honoring vets is a good idea but let's don't be thinking today's military is a microcosm of American society. It just ain't so. 

Wednesday, October 30, 2013


We have to fix the flaws in Obamacare: plain and simple. As I see it, biggest f..k up is that people can't keep their own insurance. Not sure what it all means but sure as s..t, can't depend on the healthcare industry. They would leave cancer patients on gurneys in the street. They are motivated by profits and we need to figure out a way to kick their ass. Unfortunately, most people labor under the allusion that HMOs care. Bullshit. They don't. 

An example which relates to myths on our part. I got dinged for a late payment on a credit card where I had a small balance. I have been a customer for 30 years. It was one of these computer generated things and when I finally reached customer service to raise hell, I got some youngster who didn't know his ass from a hole in the ground. Not his fault. He is just happy to have a job. Once I settled down, I realized how much this sort of stuff is related to the Affordable Health Care Act. You have all these people out there We have to fix the glitches. We are not talking about the Republican Obsession. And, we can't rely on that bullshit of "small percentage" of those who lose plans they like. It is fairly unAmerican to force people to do things even if it is good for us. But, then again, what the hell. We make people wear seat belts, have car insurance, etc. I say again, what the hell. 

Will this get fixed? I doubt it. I tell you what it reminds me of. NYC has something like 3000 muggings a week. In a city of 11 mil, 3000 is not much. However, if you are one of the 3000, it is a 100%. If you are one of the ones who loses your healthcare because of the AHCA, it is a 100%. 

Monday, October 28, 2013


Watching the World Series this week, the games have honored American service men and women. Pretty inspiring to hear, God Bless America. My initial thought: the military is something upon which all can agree. Pride. However, the military will do what we always do after wars: fire soldiers. 

TIME Magazine recently had a piece about the resistance of the Army to change. Still , according to the article, after these two prolonged (useless) wars, the Army has no "after war" strategy. The Army, in particular, is still prepared for the "Cold War" and not terrorism or whatever we face in the future. 

I don't doubt any of it. Too many generals/officers at every level. Not enough emphasis on Special Ops. What this article dealt with was philosophy. Every swinging "Richard" has an opinion. The military is about to do what we always do. CUT. And, it is going to be brutal and in the long run, who suffers are the troops. We will throw lots of good soldiers out, many who have shed their life's blood in two sorry wars. Not their fault. They are soldiers, have done their jobs. Makes no difference, they are "out of here." And, I don't see anybody at the top levels willing to take on doing this "drawdown" with some common sense. The top brass of the Army can't do it. The vast majority of bureaucrats have no military experience and if these two sorry wars have taught us anything: Can't trust the rosy reports of the leaders. We have to have some "big" thinkers and I don't know where we can find them. F..k. 

Saturday, October 26, 2013


The GFs ((Girlfriends--old guys I have breakfast with three times a week) gave me hell this week. The rollout of the President's health care package has been a disaster. The website could have been put together by two seventh graders. I apologize to the 7th graders, as tech savvy as most of these kids are, they could have done a better job. 

There really is no way to defend the president. He is the leader and has to take the hit. He should have put the NSA in charge, at least they could have listened to a few thousand calls and pretended it was "National Security" and the website was "top secret." Such bullshit.  

The Myers Briggs Type Indicator personality instrument pegs the prez, as an ENTJ (Extrovert, iNtuitive, Thinker, Judging). Same as my wife who could run the world. The President, based on his personality, has been a little too reticent to fire people. His management style, "give them a job and expect them to do it." Hasn't worked. 

We have to give the Affordable Care Act some time. There are problems with the "law" that are outside the mere website. The website is mechanics. It will get fixed but there are other problems--I heard this young girl with Kaiser who now had to give up insurance that she liked and go to another something, more expensive. Bullshit. These problems have got to get fixed. 

And sure as shit, we can't allow drug companies and pharmaceuticals in general to have anything to say. Their middle name is gouge the consumer. There are examples everywhere of how f..k up our system of healthcare is and it doesn't have anything to do with "Obamacare." Over the last couple of years, we have seen investigative report after report that shows how out of control, $3000 a night for a hospital room, etc--bullshit to the max. But, they are still gouging. Why? Because they can. They will exploit any loophole to sabotage reform. MFers.  

In terms of placating the Republicans. Forget it. Can't be done. The president is the smartest president I've known but when you have to deal with basic racism, he could be "Jesus walking on water" and he could't please these MFers. So, what to do? Forget pleasing, translated, politics. But, Mr. President, it is time for another strategy. The AHSO defense. Here it is. 

Captain Ahso was the pilot of a Japanese Airliner who landed his plane in the San Francisco Bay. His landing was so smooth that the passengers didn't even realize it until they saw sailboats. When all the furor died down, the FAA had a hearing and Captain Ahso was the first witness. The interrogator said something like, "Captain Ahso tell us what happened. With all the sophisticated navigation equipment available to you, plus a clear beautiful day, and you managed still to land five miles out in the San Francisco Bay? What happened?" The courtroom was quiet, all eyes were on Captain Ahso. Finally he said, "CAPTAIN AHSO FUCK UP!" There you have it. Let's quit justifying, blaming, let's take the AHSO Defense and move on. 

Saturday, October 19, 2013


The latest "Time Magazine" had on its cover, the lead story, the United States of Texas--Why the Lone Star Is America's Future. My first thought was "Time" has gone to Weedville. The article has a viewpoint: get lots for less, available jobs--a lifestyle. The problem with Texas is that you have to live in Texas. Worse High School dropout rate in America and a political system that has produced Rick Perry and Ted Cruz. And, really you want to live in Texas? Please. 

Wednesday, October 16, 2013


SAFE DISTRICT. What the f..k does that mean? Politically what it means, I guess, is that some Republican Congressman has a district of non thinking, ignorant people who blindly vote for some sorry MFer who will sell them down the road in a millisecond for his own purposes. Instead of his constituents getting angry when they start to realize that no SS, other government safety net issues, etc. are happening, they fall over in their stupidity, "yes sir, yes sir, three bags full." 

Monday, October 14, 2013


Robert Reich for President. He is a little guy but bigtime thinker. I have never heard him utter a word that I haven't liked. I think in the present political climate, he is like a superhero. The problem with Reich and even the documentary about "inequality" (features Reich) now in theaters is that he is preaching to the choir. The difficulty is that Republican bigoted, right wing zealots have taken us hostage. 

The one thing that Reich says that sticks out above all is that the President has the authority under the 14th Amendment to raise the debt ceiling. If Reich says it, I believe it, plain and simple. If the president doesn't follow Reich's advice, I am going to be damn pissed at him. 

Thursday, October 10, 2013


A friend of mine says term limits are the secret. We can't bring that about. His idea is a little novel, however. He says that when we go to the election, you look at who is the incumbent and you vote against them. It might work but our system doesn't lend it that way. For instance my representative is Nancy Pelosi. I candidate emerges. Why? Money maybe which brings up another issue. Why does money rule politics. If you see an ad, you have to know that somebody is paying for it. Why should you believe it. Why should billboards, TV, radio, whatever influence you if you are a thinker. Well, our Republic has beve complicated, vast population. Where do we go from here. F..k if I know. 


The absolute height of political failure/hypocrisy is experienced in the government shutdown. The extreme example is a soldier's family not receiving a promised death benefit. This is inexcusable. This crisis will pass but this incident will not. 

This is a heart tugging example of why we are a broken system. For a weird reason, to me at least, is why would
normal/average/regular people not connect the dots. Until they do, it will remain broken. And, I am not sure that connecting the dots will even do it. Simply, zeolots choose ideology over the good of the country and they are cheered on by those who have the most to lose. Maybe this will do it: When average people begin to miss their social security checks, medicare protection, government pensions, to include disable vet checks, the Zeolot supporters might suddenly come out of the ether.

Monday, October 07, 2013


A MYSTERY. I am listening to Bob Scheffer interview some Republican Senator on "Face The Nation." Scheffer asked him a direct question. Something like this: "how is it that you have let a freshman Senator, somebody who has been in the senate less than a year, set the political agenda for the entire Republican Party?" 

Here is how he answered: "The President needs to come to the negotiating table and talk to us." The MFer did not even attempt to answer Scheffer's question. We all know the Congressional mantra: When talking to the media, "never answer the question asked, answer the question you wished they had asked." Congressmen/women actually go to a type of "charm" school to learn this technique. Here's the mystery to me: why does someone like Scheffer let them off the hook? Scheffer, more than most, has nothing to prove He is a veteran Newsman and an old guy, why can't he come back and say, "Senator, you didnot answer the question: repeat the question if necessary (Why would you let some asshole like Ted Cruz set your agenda). Granted, he doesn't have to be as crude as me (although it would be more honest) but any way you cut it, it is disingenuous to the listening public not to get a straight answer.  

Saturday, October 05, 2013

Cecil Currey

Vo Nguyen Giap. The tenacious North Vietnam leader who would not die-- finally hits the road, 102. Vo Nguyen Giap and the victory at Dien Bien Phu essentially drove France out of Vietnam   and, of course, in our stupidity, we replaced the French. Giap did not drive us out, rather waited us out. 

The definitive book about Giap was written by my good friend, Cecil Currey. When I read of Giap's death, I immediately thought of Cecil. He had sent me his book, "Victory at Any Cost." I am not so much interested in Giap as I am in my good friend Cecil. The last time I talked with him, he was on the way to Vietnam to visit Giap as they had developed a close relationship. Cecil was a hero in Vietnam. And, I will have to say that Cecil was one of my heroes. 

We beat around the Army together for a long time. Without a doubt, he should have made general but he refused to be politically correct if it sacrificed the truth. Cecil is a perfect example in our modern volunteer military, the best leaders rarely get to the top. In my own faith, I take comfort that Giap and my good friend are somewhere philosophizing.  

Thursday, October 03, 2013

God Bless "merica" (NASCAR pronunciation)

As I've totally run out of things to say about the idiotsville Congress and the governmental shutdown; and in seeing no progress, here's a good story. America is such a unique country that as we wrestle with what seems like  impossible differences, it is good to remind ourselves of the occasional unique difference in us and other countries. 

I am listening to a man in Pakistan being interviewed. He is a Christian and is talking about the targeting of the Chritian community by Muslims. Here he says, "All someone has to do is accuse you of insulting the Prophet. The first thing you know, a crowd has gathered and your life is in danger. No proof, nothing. It happens all the time. People are falsely accused: someone  starts screaming, wanting the person stoned, hanged. All on nothing more than accusation."

The difference in America. Someone accuses, starts making noises, anything out of the ordinary. Some bystander calls the police and says, "there's a nut out here screaming and hollering about something." The police come and check it out. Everybody goes about their business. WELCOME TO "Merica."

A moral Issue

What we have in America today is a f..king moral lapse. Most of it has to do with politics. 26 states don't offer the expansion of Medicaid. We are talking health insurance denied to poor Americans. And why, a Republican Governor who is morally corrupt. Paint it any way you want. MFers are without scruples. 

Wednesday, October 02, 2013


“Novelist, Tom Clancey who just died said it best. Why does Washington rarely make good decisions? 
Answer: We elect idiots. 
What I think he should have added: the people who elect these idiots are just as much idiots.”


The last day of Baseball. I was watching the ballgame, the last game for the Giants this season. Boche, the Manager, put in Barry Zito for his last time in a Giants Uniform. He struck the final batter of the Inning out. Sharon loved Zito when he was in Oakland and then the Giants. I figured he pitched the only and last out in honor of Sharon.  

WHAT IS REALLY BEHIND SHUTTING DOWN THE GOVERNMENT. IN A WORD, racism. 63% of Tea Party is from the South. HELLO!!!!!  HELLO!!!

Saturday, September 28, 2013


 I performed her first wedding. It lasted a couple of years. She was married to this asshole doctor who was abusive. A few years later she met this great guy, Nick. And married him. I performed that wedding. She died of breast cancer lady year. 

Here is my blog post. 
Baseball is a metaphor on life. It is a game of great strategy. I just bet I'm not the first to echo that. Recently I watched Mariana Rivera, play his last game. He is loved, honored and respected by everybody. Pretty impressive. He said something that really resonated when asked why all fans love him--"they do" he said,  "because I respect the game." 

For my team, the San Francisco Giants, I always think of my friend Sharon who loved baseball. All teams. She knew the names, standings. She could talk baseball. Her Dad and Sharon started going to games early. In those days it was the Orioles, I think, as they lived in PA. 

But, it was all of baseball she loved, the strategy, the comings and goings. In later years, she embraced the Giants and to a slightly less degree the Oakland Athletics. I would love to talk with her about what happened to the Giants this year. She would probably say, "What worked last year didn't work this year. But, it's baseball. Wait to next year." Sharon, like Mariano Riviera, "respected the game."   

Wednesday, September 25, 2013


THE KENYA TRAGEDY. Terrorist Gunmen run into a shopping mall and randomly kill innocents and take hostages--many of which, die. They hole up for days, expecting to die. 

Who are they? Terrorists. They have an idiocy ideology which make no sense. When the siege is over, the terrorists have left immeasurable pain. They are sorry ignorant MFers and that is pretty mild. 

These particular terrorists are really stupid, not just stupid but dumb. We are talking that in a twelve story building their elevator goes to about floor three. Simple, they can be told something so out of reason: virgins in heaven waiting for them. They believe. Some times, rare exceptions, some brainwashed idealist may join up. Reportedly some Americans, a female Brit. Nobody knows. 

The bigger question is how do you deal with fanatics. In a sense, impossible. We have to protect ourselves the best we can and go on about our lives. If it were up to me personally, I would figure out a way to apply what I called the "Unforgiven" philosophy. In the movie by the same name, starring Clint Eastwood and I think won an Academy Award for "Best Picture." The story is pretty involved and I can't possibly recount it accurately here but I am out to make a point. Clint comes to town, along with his good friend played by Morgan Freeman, to claim a bounty put up by the town prostitutes because one of the patrons maimed one of the girls. Clint needs the money for his farm. The mission is accomplished. They kill the bad guys and they claim the reward but decide to split up but it goes to hell as the Morgan Freeman character, Ned, is caught and brutally tortured. Clint can't live with it. He goes into town where he confronts the corrupt Sheriff and his henchmen and ends up killing everybody but the director. When he is finished, he gets on his horse and stops in front of Ned's coffin that the bad guys displayed publicly and he says to the townspeople, something like, "You better give Ned  (his friend) a proper burial or I am coming back and kill all of you, then I am going to kill your families and then I am going to hunt down anybody who knows you and kill them." 

Now, this is a little extreme but the philosophy is there. Terrorist have to know up front that an act like the Mall Massacre will cost them more than their lives. 

Friday, September 20, 2013

Mexican Stand-Off

I have heard this term. Not sure what it means and I mean no disrespect to our Hispanic brethren. But, this is what I envision it to be: a standoff between "right wing fundamentalist" (don't confuse me facts, I have my mind made up) on one side and the President on the other. Now that I am thinking about it: zealots is a better concept. The Republicans are a bunch of zealots/bigots--right wing zealots, the worst kind. Add in heartless and selfish who don't "f..kin" care about the country, only their ideology. 

I cannot believe that "Americans who care" (And, I say again, not all Americans do) elect these sorry ass reps. Denying the poor a safety net like food stamps is downright heartless. For once, I would think that there might be one Republican to say something--just ONE, who would say, "I am always going to do what is right. If the voters back home don't want me, so be it but I'll never be a party to something that I believe to be fundamentally wrong." NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN 

Listening to some of these heartless assholes on TV is embarrassing, statements like, "all these people need to do is get a job." The imbecile, most, in fact the vast majority who get food stamps, are the working poor. 

Am I biased? Absolutely, In this instance, I come down on what I believe to be the American Way. Will anybody be influenced by me: f..k NO. At best, I am preaching to the choir. God bless us. 

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Mental Problems

The News Media have said that the DC shooter appears to have mental problems. Hello! Hello! The guys shoots some construction workers' tires out. He shoots through the floor ceiling and almost kills a woman. Mental problems? HELLO!!!!!!!šŸ˜³

Friday, September 13, 2013


SYRIA IS NO WIN. I have personally been disappointed in the president with the idea that somehow we can punish the Syrian tyrants simply because we can. Who knows what the Russian motive is here but they have the "better hand," I believe. It really appears that we are trying to sabotage a compromise. Two things are very baffling to me. Why don't the President and Sec of State and all the others directly involved, "Shut the f..k up!" Nobody wants transparency more than me but this incessant insisting that we must have all these guarantees about chemical weapons or we are going to kick ass, is not moving us toward anything positive and talking about it to any microphone that happens by is bullshit. Come on!!! It is not helpful, this running off at the mouth. 

My good friend said it this way, "I think Putin makes the president look inept. 
Putin is a thug. It is a shame that he will be considered the peacemaker in this  situation."